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 "Begin"
The Wailin' Jennys 

 
Hey, maybe the time
just wasn't right to hang on
When are you gonna learn
Sometimes things turn instead of turn out
 
Hey, when are you gonna stand
Stop looking over your shoulder
Me, with a head full of words
And not one useful expression
Hey, let go
 
We, with holes in our hearts
Were whole at the start
Our story began
We film ourselves 'til the end
Try to suspend our lives in the dark
 
Hey, when are you gonna stand
Stop looking over your shoulder
See, there's a sun in the sky
And a moon that will take us til morning
When are you gonna stand
Stop and begin this moment
Hey, let go
Let go (will we be the ones to understand?)...

And Portland does this too!

 LOL!

Attack of the drunken, smoking, half-naked santas in San Francisco!

Living for myself

I haven't been very kind to myself lately. I've been really frustrated with not working, and gradually all the little frustrating things I come across day-to-day have become bigger because of this congregation of frustration. But the only way to deal with all of that is to let it all go and remember that none of the day-to-day stuff is who I am. I am me no matter what, and I am something more essential.

The snow has been falling and blowing all day, and I've been curled up so close to myself -- simply to keep warm -- that I was forced to really look at myself. I've been doing a lot of self-examination recently, but today I was listening too. I'm learning how to not judge myself.

Keep an eye out, will you?

 Anyone see where I put my courage?

I think it's hiding from me.

I want to tell you

 The song "Sea of Love" by Cat Power has been with me a lot lately. I've been feeling kinda blue, and I'm slowly finding some sort of peace with the recent turmoil. Kind-of, anyway.
 
I'm sure everyone has their days where life is bittersweet. I've just had a few more than usual over the past few weeks. All of the things I read in my poetry classes about "Eros the Bittersweet" seem more close to home than ever. How the deepest love comes out of that innate inability to ever reach fulfillment. Two people must always remain two separate beings, however close they become. That denial of true satisfaction creates desire. The constant denial can exist in a joyful way, or it can exist in an unrequited way. It flutters on the edge between joy and pain.
 
In any case, these are the lyrics to this simple and beautiful song, which to me expresses a lot of the bittersweet that I'm feeling. I wish I could link to the song somewhere to listen to, because I realized that a huge part of it's expressiveness is the melody. Well, here's the skeleton of the music:
 
Come with me
My love
To the sea
The sea of love
 
I want to tell you
How much
I love you
 
Do you remember
When we met
That’s the day
I knew you were my pet
 
I want to tell you
How much
I love you
 
Come with me
My love
To the sea
The sea of love
 
I want to tell you
How much
I love you

Incense

 v. To inflame, excite, ‘kindle’ (passion or ardent feeling). To incite to some action; to urge, instigate, stir up, ‘set on’.
 
To me the most amazing thing about Obama's victory in November 4th's election is the resounding cheer that rippled across the whole world. Over 700 front pages of newspapers and magazines over the globe featured his image the next day. People are happy with America again. The U.S. has always been a symbol of a just, free nation, but over the past decade that ideal has diminished as the dislike for Bush's administration grew. With this election the ideal has suddenly been revitalized. "Finally," everyone is saying, "they got rid of him!"
 
It is humbling to learn of the hundreds and thousands of people around the world who celebrated Obama's victory in a far more dedicated way than I ever did. People in Kenya stayed up all night or got up early to celebrate in huge crowds in the streets. This collection of photographs shows several other international celebrations. 
 
I didn't stay up all night, and I actually live here. I'm excited, but maybe the symbol is somehow bigger when you're far enough away to look at the whole thing.
 What the heck is going on?? I can't believe people actually LIKE this woman... she is a Christian fundamentalist... she called the Iraq war "a task that is from God." Read the article here on The Raw Story.

Whatever happened to "separation of church and state"? Did someone not get that memo? "That memo" being the CONSTITUTION OF THE UNITED STATES?

McCain is even worse. If for nothing else, the fact that he voted against requiring free rape exams for victims makes me despise him.

It is undeniable that McCain and Palin will only end up doing whatever the Republican party wants them to do. They say they want to "bring change to Washington" but say NOTHING about what they will do that is different from what we have now.

I think Jon Stewart has been a little more fed up lately with the pure ignorance that makes up support for the Republican candidates. I am too. His show on September 5th was very pointed (and brilliantly funny, as always) and... perhaps a little less subtle than usual? It's as though he's screaming "Why the heck do you people still think this guy is even a consideration? Don't you want your president to be smarter than you?" YES PLEASE. Yes I do.

The Daily Show, September 5th, 2008 - Full Episode
 
It scares me that if McCain/Palin win this election, the reverberations won't be limited to America alone. As leaders they are going to interfere with the world in the same way Bush is interfering now. And not in an encouraging, peaceful way.
 
The Republican campaign is running on empty phrases and manipulative rhetoric. I can't believe that more people don't see how wrong that is for our country right now (or ever!!).
 
It does make me happy that the media is really doing their job and pushing for the answers to their questions - though the Republicans repeatedly refuse to directly answer anything or admit to blatantly lying. Check out this smack down.
 
Do you REALLY want more of this crap in the white house?

Thanks, McCain and Palin, for getting me fired up enough to want to tell everyone I know how important it is NOT to elect you. I appreciate the incentive. But if you win by some freak brain fart of the vote (read: republican election fraud), I am leaving the country.

Barackappella

Barackappella Concert!

Read the article about the event on crisscrosshatch: LC Barackappella

Youtube video:



Just LOOK at the number of views, and the number of comments... I can hardly believe it! And if you go to dipdive.com we're listed under the "Dip Inspired" videos... WOW.

The Oregonian wrote an article about us that hasn't been published yet, so keep an eye out for it! I can't wait. We've already been invited to go sing somewhere else in Oregon, too.

I don't even know what else to say. Awesome. I am so happy to be a part of this.

Yes We Can

This is something I just can't seem to stop watching. The first time I saw it I just sat there stunned, wondering why I felt so... relieved. It made me cry. It is so refreshing to see real heart coming into politics. I need so badly to be inspired by something in our political system right now, and for me, Obama is that inspirational figure.

Yes We Can Music Video on dipdive.com

Yes, it's corny, yes, it's "silly idealistic talk," but it is real too. All it asks is that we acknowledge our unity, as human beings who all want the same basic things.

The Dalai Lama has said that the way he remembers to relate to every single person he meets is to remember "we all seek happiness and try to avoid suffering regardless of our race, religion, sex or political status." Just those two things make us all the same. We all don't want to suffer. We all want to be happy.

That alone encourages me toward believing that a more unified world is possible. And this is not belief from a blind, "it will happen one day" passive state. I believe in my own part, my own power in creating that unity.

Incidentally, the youtube version alone of this video has had over 2 million views in the course of the 5 days it has been posted. Isn't that amazing?

Foolish Mortals

Because I feel we are actually beginning to see a show come together, and that we might just be ready by the time the play is supposed to open, you should all come see....

A Midsummer Night's Dream
By William Shakespeare

...Starring me as Snout, one of the mechanicals and the Wall in the "play within the play," Pyramus and Thisbe scene!
...And many other fabulous people as well. =P

The performances are:
        Preview:  Thursday, November 1
        First Weekend:  Friday & Saturday, November 2 & 3
        Second Weekend:  Thursday, Friday & Saturday, November 8, 9, & 10

       All shows at 7:30pm, in the Fir Acres Theatre Mainstage!

So come see me make a fool of myself already. It will be glorious. There is much scaffolding and beauteous lighting, and fairies wearing crazy silver unitards. You don't want to miss those!